The Lord’s Seva

Every month or two, I come to the computer often under stress
To edit or proof the newsletter
But this is my seva, my mind reminds me, not supposed to be done under duress
Too many things to do, too much pressure, and now this…
How can i ignore the reluctance with which i sit to work?
Then i dedicate it all, saying Lord, please think through me, edit through me, proof through me, and so on…
Every month or two, He reveals to my forgetful mind
That it is not I who am doing Him any favors
But it is He who is gracing me
Gracing me beyond words
Showing me answers to troubling questions
Lighting the path through difficult woods
Illuminating my mind, my intellect, my heart
Softening my spirit, humbling me
Teaching me, once again, that we who supposedly serve the Lord
Are but served divinely by the Lord of love Himself
Who ignores our ignorance and continues His compassion
What would I do if the Lord took my complaints seriously
And stopped sending me, under the pretext of “work”,
His supremely merciful look, His caring, His guidance, through His words, His stories, and His newsletter?

~Veena S